Love, Hate, which to choose?

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

get it right

im done with this...i cant be always lying to myself thinking that you love me too...whats wrong with me...will you tell me? Cuz im blind enough after seeking things that were'nt really there...i thought i had it all together then you dissappointed me...i thought you would be missing me after the period we have'nt seen each other but i was so wrong!...man, once again ive been fooled!...im so naive!... im not willing to suffer anymore for something that isnt really there and id be chasing it,wasting me time for nothing...i thought it would change the way we were for the better,but this is really tearing me apart.Apart from me missing you so much,you'd actually just leave me here waiting?...i have a life you know...better,im a woman...and i need a better way of treatment...i dont deserve this...and maybe i dont deserve you either...maybe you belong to some rich,prada-wearing,harvard enrolled sized 2 lass that wears 7 inch gucci high heels...or some girl with a ravishing body,airhead model from some well known magazine...well im not one of them...im simple,fat,sentimental and emotional...i dun plan of getting to harvard cuz im too poor,i dont wish to wear 9 inch christian dior heels and i will never be rich...thats what i am... i dont think i am what your parents want,your friends will find you blind for dating me...well i dont wish to bring you into my horrid life...it isnt that easy being me...so il give you a hint...go run off with some rich bitch and be better off...cuz if thats what you expect,i cant be it...im not changing for you...

please believe me again at 9:19 PM