Love, Hate, which to choose?

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Friday, September 15, 2006

I honestly think...

As days go by,im starting to lose my grip and think that i will never get to the point where i want to be; with you... Sometimes i feel so good being with you that i forget that im heavily broken... It seems so perfect all the time...but All there is are flaws covered in bitter-sweet laughters and happiness... And some of the time i just cant help turning green with envy that i turned to aggressive to function my usuall self and it not only hurt me but it affects the rest of what surrounds me... Maybe happiness just isnt my ending cause i believe that those who made it did something right and all i had was a whole line of mistakes.Im not rich neither am i pretty... But at times i tell myself, its not fair to lie to myself about what i really feel about you and escaping the fact that im not compatible with you but i have to tell you cuz it aint right,after 4 years that ive waited and a girl just 3/4 years you've been with got you in her arms...it aint fair...so ive decide that im not gonna try to impress you anymore cuz im tired of waiting for nothing! But im still hanging on for the sake of my heart ever so tormented with everything you say and yet most of it is a lie...I was so stupid o think you felt the same but you will never love me the way i do...

please believe me again at 9:34 PM