In movies,there is always alot of teenage pregnancies,they keep it,send it out for adoption or even abortion, everybody would just open there mouths to critisize or say something harsh like "you did it you deserve it! get out of the problem yourself!!! ". but nobody ever seen it like a sacrifice. The mother has to sacrifice soo much for the baby and so much is going through their mind... im not really sure about what really happens but i think i have something near to the experience...

i was 12 when my mom conceived a baby in her.many things went to mind during the first few months...everything was so great till the horrifying death of my grandfather...i wasnt prepared for this,it just wasnt fair for joshua cuz he was 1 month away to being born and grandpa died... my whole feelings wreched as if someone wached them away from me...so we went back to philippines right after my exams.i met up with my relatives that i havent seen for the longest time...

a month later, mom gave birth to JOSHUA. my parents said he pretty much looks like me...its was rather sad that i have to leave the next day after they were released from the hospital.my mother said that she thought of me when she was in labour.she thought of me struggling like her when some day im married.then it came to my mind how hard would it be for teen mothers or single parents handle this?!

after a few months since they return to singapore,my grandma had to go back to philippines and no one was left to take care of him. hmmm...my mother's friend decided that she could take care of the baby.but the baby has to stay in her house.... i was so devastated it felt like giving him away for adoption.then i thought again.thinking about single teen mothers who has giving there baby for adoption...it was so sad to see him go! i couldnt help but cry. now i feel so alone,having the scent of his colongne on my hands remained from the last moment i held him in my arms...

no of all you beastlings can shelter my heart from extinction of thy most love