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Tuesday, October 10, 2006
will you still love me [even as a friend]...
...........................I'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT AND I'M STILL GOING THROUGH A LOT OF HURTFUL SITUATIONS.I FElL INLOVE, I FElL OUT OF LOVE, I THOUGHT IT WAS OVER AND I WAS THROUGH BUT THEN I FElL INLOVE AGAIN.NOW, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I FEEL BUT SOMETHINGS TELLING ME THAT YOU ARE JUST MEANT TO BE A CLOSE FRIEND AND THATS ALL. I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT AFTER ACCEPTING THE FACT THAT I HAVE ALL THE REASON FOR US TO REMAIN JUST FRIENDS.BUT DAY BY DAY MY HEART GETS RIPPED APART AND IT SEEMS LIKE WE DID NOT EVEN KNOW EACH OTHER. IT'S SUCH A PITY TO SEE US DRIFT APART AND AFTER THE LONG TIME WE HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER. I GUESS THATS HOW ITS SUPPOSE TO BE. YOU CALL ME YOUR BEST FRIEND BUT THIS IS HOW YOU RESPOND TO THE CHANGES OF OUR LIVES AS WE GROW APART. I FEEL AALONE AND HURT CAUSE IT FEELS LIKE I'M THE ONLY ONE HANGING ON TO KEEP THIS FRIENDSHIP ALIVE.I WONDER IF I GOT INTO AN ACCIDENT, WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME AS I AM? IF WE LOST CONTACT, WILL YOU STILL REMEMBER ME?YOU SAY YOU WILL, BUT WILL YOU DO IT? CAUSE NOW WHEN I'M STILL HERE, WAITING FOR YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU LEFT ME HERE, ALL ALONE WHEN YOU PROMISED ME THAT WE WILL HAVE A GREAT LIFE TOGETHER AS BEST FRIENDS.HOW COULD YOU GO, HOW COULD YOU SAY GOODBYE, IT HURTS INSIDE CAUSE BY NOW, STILL CAN'T FIND THE REASON WHY LOVE CAN'T LIE...YOU SNOBBED ME WHEN YOU'RE WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND LEAVE ME IN THE BACKGROUND. WHERE I FOLLOWED EVER SO ALONE AND I HAD NO CHOICE TO SHUT UP AND FOLLOW. I CANT BELIEVE THAT YOU WILL DO THIS TO ME AFTER THE GOOD TIMES THAT WE SHARED.I GUESS IT'S EASY TO CONCLUDE THAT YOU ARE ONLY A FRIEND OF GOOD TIMES AND YOU TURN AWAY WHEN I NEED YOU MOST. let these tears fall till ther's none left from where they belong...I'M SO NAIVE WHEN IT COMES TO THIS AND IT HAPPEND A THOUSAND TIMES BEFORE AND I'M BACK WHERE I STARTED. THIS IS JUST WHAT I NEED, THE GIRL IS SEE AND LAUGH AT FOR BEING A LONER IN THE MIRROR IS ME..............................
please believe me again at 5:01 PM
die for all unfaithfull tomorrows and you shall suffer for your saddistic encounters to the one you liedfully love
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